California

I'm so terrified
But I'm applying.

I've always been the girl that's afraid to leave her backyard
& Now I might leave for a whole school year

My soul wants to break free
but my heart wants me to stay
Where I'm safe
& accepted

I shouldn't freak out
I mean, I haven't even applied yet.

But I can't breathe when it comes to mind
I wish someone would tell me to stay

But no one cares what I do
That's what really makes me wanna leave
I think maybe when I'm gone
People will maybe actually miss me.