Change

I've never been good at change.
Ever since my brother left,
I've always wanted everything to stay the same
I wanted that small piece of my perfect world
To stay with me

But everything
& everyone
Changes

It's life
& it's the way it has to be

I've been so frustrated with
Everyone else
& how much they've been changing
To me
I never stopped to look and wonder

Are they really changing?
Or is it me that's changing?

All along I've been blaming everyone else
Walking out on me
Or become a new person around me
But all this time it's really
Just been me

I've changed.
& that's so weird to say

Change has always been scary for me
& Usually not very good
But this change,
Feels amazing

I have become
Independent
Strong
Determined
& I've developed a low bull-shit tolerance

My life is pulling itself together
& instead of me sitting around
Waiting to find out who I really am
I'm going to break the rules

I'm not going to look for myself
I'm going to invent myself

Change has never felt so good.