That's right.

If you know me, I'm one of the most responsible people you'll ever meet. Yes, I can be a little reckless, but I am 18 so that's a given. But damn.
On June 27th, I've never felt so careless in my entire life.
Lacey and I were on this really steep ledge type thing and I decided to jump off.
It didn't look that high..
It didn't look high.
It was.




I broke my leg and screwed up all of my tendons and shit.
Firemen carried me to an ambulance and I got my very own hospital bracelet with my name on it(:
Oh yeah, it hurt like hell.
It still hurts. And it looks kinda awkward..
But I don't regret jumping! This is a step closer to finding out who I really am..
Er, limp(:

livelavalive

So,
I used to watch Mitchell Davis videos all the time. I think for awhile I had everyone of them memorized..!
Anyway, school kinda started and I just kinda stopped watching them. But I found one of my livelavalive bracelets yesterday and decided to check in on him.
I'm so glad I did(:

He's so funny!
If you don't know who I'm talking about, www.youtube.com/livelavalive

Another cool thing is that he made another channel for his artsy videos. Those are super cool and I loooove them. If I had money, I would buy super cool cameras like he has.

The reason that I'm even talking about mitchell is that he makes me happy and he inspires me to do new things and not to be afraid of raptors... because his apartment is dino proof.

Dr. Multi Beard!

ANYWAYS,

Lacey and I had a tea party yesterday. It was fun(:

I am happy today

&& You're not going to bring me down(:

You are so gorgeous
When you smile, my thoughts go wild
Should I wait for you?

I have waited a long time to be this happy. I'm not sure what it is, but I love it.

My Dream

I am the passenger
You are driving
We are alone
But you are distracted
Your thoughts are elsewhere

Someone else decided to drink tonight
Someone else decided to not think tonight
Someone else doesn't care
Someone else hates their life
Someone else is selfish

You know your place
You are the leader
I am trying so hard to tell you
You can't see or hear me
I don't want you to be alone

But someone else decided to drive tonight

You are lost in your thoughts tonight
I am lost in my words tonight
I am trying so hard to tell you
Someone else is lost in their decision
So much happens at once

I open my eyes
I am screaming your name
You are not responding
Someone else sees what they have done
Someone else just drives away

My words finally come out, but it's too late.
'I love you Ryan, you're not alone'
But now I am alone
You're now gone
And I'm here, waiting to wake up.


Awake.

It was a dream.

But you're still gone.

& I feel so alone.

I love summer.

mmmm

Dear Patrick,

Could you please hurry up with that solo album?!

Thanks love.

Who do you think you are?

Slandering my family?
I don't care if you were apart of his life.
You're not now.
So you may not judge him.
I will never let you do that again.

It makes me sick that I decided to keep my mouth closed.

If it happens again, you're going to wish you had never met me.

I don't care if I'm going through a difficult time with them,
You may not judge.
It is not your place.

I hate how you think you have the right to say what you want.

Why did I ever let you back into my life?