Dear Perfection,

I shouldn't
It would be a mistake to
I think I'm starting to
I just can't control that I
It bothers me that I
I'm going to get hurt because I


Like you.

Depression

I don't know what I want out of my life.

College is not what I expected. I don't enjoy what I'm doing there and I feel like I'm wasting my time and money. Instead of enjoying myself and others around me, I find myself staring at the clock and begging time to make the weekend come faster. I'm trying to hold on and see if it gets better, but I don't know if it will.

I want to leave so bad, but only far enough for you to miss me.
Not that you'd admit it anyways.

No one prepared me for this. I'm so lost and no one cares.

I wish I could shout it out. I wish I could scream to the world that I hate the stereotypical lifestyle. Go to school, go to college, get a job, get married, have children, raise them, & then die.

I want to do something different. No, I do not want to be a pen pusher or teacher. I want to explore, I want to travel, I want to dream my life away. I wish that a space pirate would crash into my yard and send me on a huge adventure to treasure planet.

Maybe someday I'll be ready to fit the mold, but I don't feel like that's anytime soon.
For now, I'll drown in your need for me to be like everyone else and dream of breaking the surface.

Spoken:

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the world's a stage
And each must play a part
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you
Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you won't come back to me
Then they can bring the curtain down

-Elvis Presley

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Liking your best friend is not an easy task
Especially when you've done this for three years.
I've finally gotten over you
Only to start liking a new friend

When does this game end?
I'm tired of falling for people I can't have
It's annoying and exhausting.

Blahblahblahblahblah.

That's what people hear when I open my mouth(:

Lost

I try to take off my head sometimes,
because I can't escape the memories.

I haven't lost anything except my mind.

-The Used

Sparkle

The pretty sparkle in my eye,
You stole it.
It was not my decision
I tried to get it back
But you held it tight between your fingers
And carelessly put it in your back pocket

You're different that I expected
I've never had perfection like you in my life
Look at me the way you do
Last night, I decided that I would give you a chance
I told my heart that maybe someone like you
Could actually admire someone like me

& then I saw you early the next morning
You were in a character I did not expect
Careless and in my face
The sparkle in your pocket didn't matter to you anymore
In fact, I'm pretty sure you fell on it a few times
As I left the scene, the words you said were the ones ringing in my ears

I'm trying to let this go
It wasn't you talking to me
It was the drink of the night life
But I don't know if I'll ever look at you the same
I'll try to ignore my heart and pretend that nothing happened
But I can't forget.

I wish

I wish I could just let it go

But I can't.

I wish I wasn't disappointed

But I am.