Happy

I haven't been this happy for a long time
When I walk
When I talk
When I sing
When I dance
It's out of pure joy
It's coming from within
I can't figure it out
Maybe I should
Maybe I shouldn't

For now, I'll just smile up a storm underneath my rainbow umbrella(::

I'm in love with life.

New Post!

1.
I'm now in love with youtube.
2.
I'm pretty sure my crush on you is gone.
3.
I miss my sister.
4.
I should probably be doing homework.
5.
I love you five.

sometimes

I truly worry about myself.
I was supposed to start my homework @ seven.
Instead, I decided to clean and re-arrange my room.
I just finished.
I'm supposed to read 5 chapters of a book for tomorrow.
I have a paper due tomorrow.
I have @least four hours of homework due for wednesday.
Siiiiiiiiigh.

Rain. rain.
Stay the day.
And make me a thunderstorm big enough to cancel classes.

Photographs

It's midnight
I begin to wander
& I stumble across your photographs
You're happy
Carefree and so gorgeous
You were almost mine once
The thoughts of us make me smile
You were thee very first boy to call me beautiful
Even though we didn't work out,
We became great friends
Best person to play 20 questions with?
Ryan DeZurik(:

Then I start to read the comments:
"I miss you! R.I.P."
"Ryan, I hope you're loving heaven!"
"Dude, I miss you."
"Love you bro, see you soon!!"

Sadness fills.
I had forgotten.

I hate seeing those comments.
I can't just write 'I miss you' because it's not enough.
Missing someone shouldn't hurt like this.
I hate how I feel.
I can't let go.
I think of that drunk driver often.

Forgive and forget?

Never.

I hate

I hate that you always have to be right.
I hate that you're good at everything.
I hate that you're so competitive.
I hate how you have to prove me wrong.
I hate how you pick on me.
I hate how you call me out on my stupidity.
I hate your style.
I hate your stupid hats.
I hate how cute your right front tooth is.
I hate how you fit in with my friends.
I hate how you're nice to everyone, even if you don't like them.
I hate the way you talk to me.
I hate how I catch you staring.
I hate how you're probably acting.
But worst of all,
I hate how I can't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Friday

Tomorrow is friday.
Which means Grendel is leaving.

It sucks because we didn't really hang out a whole lot this summer
But every time we did, it was something new, fun, and carefree
No matter what, we can always start right where we left off
Even if we don't see each other for weeks
It doesn't matter
We mesh like blue and yellow
B.e.a.utiful.

Pretty girl, you're going to have so much fun in the cities!
You're going to fit right in
You belong in a city
Don't be afraid, just breathe
Inspire others and let others inspire you
Let go and be free
But don't forget where your home is

We'll always be here for you(:

Don't rip too many arms off without me!