-13

have you ever played
break the ice?
you have your little green hammer
tap tap
against those sweet plastic
hollow
squares
tap tap tap
such a solid form
until just one block is
tapped out
what happens then?
they all become loose
one by one
they fall out.

that's what my life feels like right now
one thing after another
loosening the rest of my world
waiting for one more thing
to go wrong

i'm all alone
in the middle
of all this
plastic
ice

where do i go from here?
how do i begin to put my ice block back together?
because i honestly have no idea
where to start
or how to begin.

but i better figure it out
because life is moving
a trillion miles an hour
and it
doesn't wait for
anyone

and i can't afford to be
 left behind. 
never again.

i won't give up

my life
is going
one trillion miles an hour

and all of these
obstacles are being
hurled at me

but i will not give up.

everything is changing
very quickly 
and life doesn't slow down for anyone.

but i will not just lay down and die.

my health may be poor
my financial state may be defeating
and the people around me might loose themselves

but i refuse to sink.

i will fight to become as healthy as i can
i will push myself to balance school and work
and i will strive to be the anchor that holds everyone down

i am strong. i can do this.
adapt or die, correct?

3 months and i'll be a different woman
with different plans
and i'll have a completely different life.

wow, do i love the sound of that.