the moorhead pool

dive deep
sinking down
eyes open
vision blurred

i'm playing with death
holding my breath
under the bright blue waves.

the sun rays dancing on the floor
look like flowers laughing
and everything is weightless

everything is still.

i flip over
and let myself go
floating back toward the surface

bubbles
and the waves of my hair
are breaking the chlorinated waves.

this never gets old.
i catch my breath
and dive back down

back to temporary peace.

power and control

you're in charge
of the happiness
the mood
the plans

you're in charge.
& that isn't how this game works.

anger and pride
you're in control.

but can you still be in control
if no one is playing anymore?

because this is where this pointless game is going.

i wish you could just let go of yourself
and see the way we see you.
selfish and hurtful.

maybe one day we'll actually be able to talk
and handle the truth.
but honestly,
i really don't see that happening
anytime
soon.

sleep

vision fades
and all you want is
to snuggle in

it's your only moment of peace.
sleep.

to be under all your blankets
allowing yourself to
let go of this world
and enter another.

it's one of the most beautiful things that God has given us.

if you're sad
escape
bored
escape
stressed
escape
even if you're in a good mood, it's the joy of knowing there are more days to come and you can rest.
escape
escape
escape

and that's why we're not meant to sleep alone.

your whole life, you find your escape by falling asleep.
it's your comfort,
your peace.
and to share that with someone is wonderful.

& i can't wait for that moment.
the moment to let go of everything that
i'm afraid of.
to let go of my plans, my fears and all my anxieties
and just be at peace
with someone who makes you whole.

yes,
what a beautiful moment that will be.