livelavalive

So,
I used to watch Mitchell Davis videos all the time. I think for awhile I had everyone of them memorized..!
Anyway, school kinda started and I just kinda stopped watching them. But I found one of my livelavalive bracelets yesterday and decided to check in on him.
I'm so glad I did(:

He's so funny!
If you don't know who I'm talking about, www.youtube.com/livelavalive

Another cool thing is that he made another channel for his artsy videos. Those are super cool and I loooove them. If I had money, I would buy super cool cameras like he has.

The reason that I'm even talking about mitchell is that he makes me happy and he inspires me to do new things and not to be afraid of raptors... because his apartment is dino proof.

Dr. Multi Beard!

ANYWAYS,

Lacey and I had a tea party yesterday. It was fun(:

I am happy today

&& You're not going to bring me down(:

You are so gorgeous
When you smile, my thoughts go wild
Should I wait for you?

I have waited a long time to be this happy. I'm not sure what it is, but I love it.

My Dream

I am the passenger
You are driving
We are alone
But you are distracted
Your thoughts are elsewhere

Someone else decided to drink tonight
Someone else decided to not think tonight
Someone else doesn't care
Someone else hates their life
Someone else is selfish

You know your place
You are the leader
I am trying so hard to tell you
You can't see or hear me
I don't want you to be alone

But someone else decided to drive tonight

You are lost in your thoughts tonight
I am lost in my words tonight
I am trying so hard to tell you
Someone else is lost in their decision
So much happens at once

I open my eyes
I am screaming your name
You are not responding
Someone else sees what they have done
Someone else just drives away

My words finally come out, but it's too late.
'I love you Ryan, you're not alone'
But now I am alone
You're now gone
And I'm here, waiting to wake up.


Awake.

It was a dream.

But you're still gone.

& I feel so alone.

I love summer.

mmmm

Dear Patrick,

Could you please hurry up with that solo album?!

Thanks love.

Who do you think you are?

Slandering my family?
I don't care if you were apart of his life.
You're not now.
So you may not judge him.
I will never let you do that again.

It makes me sick that I decided to keep my mouth closed.

If it happens again, you're going to wish you had never met me.

I don't care if I'm going through a difficult time with them,
You may not judge.
It is not your place.

I hate how you think you have the right to say what you want.

Why did I ever let you back into my life?

Fill me

I am empty.
There is a hole in my heart.
For some reason,
It can't be filled.

Not with books,
They just make me wish they were reality.
Not with family,
For some reason, I can't stay away long enough.

Friends fill me.
Until one pours me out.

I've never had to fight for happiness this hard in my entire life.

Maybe it's because I said goodbye to you.
Maybe it's not.

I feel alone in a city of 150,000 people.

Rain

You are unwanted here.
You've already done your job.
Now leave.
You disgust me.
You bring sorrow to me.
Rain Rain.
Go Away.
Come again?
Never.

Sunshine, do your job.
You're beautiful.
Please, don't hide.
The clouds are defeating,
But you're better than them.
Sun, sunshine.
Come back to me.
Destroy the rain.
Bring your sensation back to my skin.

I don't know why

But every summer, depression hits me like a ton of bricks.
And I love summer. It's my favorite season.
I love feeling free and open.
But the beginning is usually pretty difficult.
My emotions are all messed up.


Summer depression.
Go away so I may laugh.
Sunshine complete me.

Amazing

"If we could party all night

& sleep all day.
& throw all of our problems away.
My life would be easy."

This summer is going to be the best summer I've ever had.
I'm going to make damn sure.
I've already gotten a jump start @ my photography project, which is to capture emotion in every picture.

And write a million haiku's.

Sunshine on my skin.
Summer can't come fast enough.
Care free gorgeous days.

Two days of school left.
Which reminds me, don't I have a book report due tomorrow?